Summer (lovely, hidden soundtrack song) is a hard time to force myself to write here and equally a hard time to bake. I don’t have the same kind of motivation in the summer months because there is so much other stuff to do, the weather is usually too warm to want to fire up the oven, and fewer people are around to actually consume the goodies. So why bother? Just wait until mid-August when people return en masse from holidays. Likewise, I either travel or have guests during summer months, and then if I bake, it is just the boring old standby stuff (the ever-popular, well-loved lemon cake, for example), so no sense in posting it. Despite my meanderings, dipping into my thoughts, my property, my musical tastes, this blog DID in fact start as a chronicle of the baked goods I was making and taking to my workplace. I hope by late summer, I will return more to those roots, even if all the other stuff is a part of my existence as a baker.

I am wondering and sort of worrying what the coming months are going to bring. I cannot fully express the level of anxiety – futures are always unknown, and I rarely feel any fear heading into the future. Right now, though, there are a lot of question marks.

Today’s soundtrack just seemed fitting.

“Eligible, not too stupid
Intelligible, and cute as cupid
Knowledgeable, but not always right
Salvageable, and free for the night

Well my heart’s runnin’ round like a chicken with its head cut off
All around the barn yard falling in and out of love
Poor thing’s blind as a bat
Gettin’ up, fallin’ down, gettin’ up
Who’d fall in love with a chicken with its head cut off?

Woah Nelly

My wife doesn’t understand me
Many dozens, hope to land me
I’m for free love
And I’m in free fall
This could be love
Or nothing at all”

The Magnetic Fields – “Chicken With Its Head Cut Off”