Death Wish
–Josh Alex BakerI ask whenis the last time you returned yourself to yourself. Iam a hypocrite to makeyou answer what I cannot. Loveis a death wish between two men bold enough to believe in it. Tolove you is to fade daily. To leave youis to die sooner. When Iwas a boy, I would tryto see how long I could hold my breath. With-holding would become a weapon one day. Eachtheft, my pride and possession. Every strokeof midnight brings its own lost slipper. Full ofbeg, I wait for a prince longing to give mybreath back to me. Heretic tongue,I will never admit what he means tome. Will sayhe was simply a game Icould not pass up. Loveis a death wish between youand the you you’re becoming. I will never admit tohim that his love feels like a teasefrom God. A gift Ionly deserve as prelude to punishment. Loveis a bluff between goodbye and forever. Yougive yourself to the gamble, tothe breathlessness that is a hammeron your chest. Iwill never admit what his loveis to me. Could youblame me? Firm as ice, given over tothe power of his touch. Left to meltinto a nothingness that Ino longer recognize. Loveis a death wish, paid in blood. Just for you
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